Everyday is Mother's Day

It's been a long while since I have been here.  I truly miss this.  All the baseball games were canceled for the day , thank you Mother Nature best Mothers day gift of all!!!  So I am home, catching up on reading many of my favorite blogs, thank you to all U, there are so many I can't possible list them.  A wonderful mother , great friend and role model just sent me an email with a video clip called The Gift of an Ordinary Day by Katrina Kenison.  WOW is all I have to say, if you have time look it and watch but be sure to have your tissues handy.  I struggle each day to look at it as a gift when my world is filled with obligations, yet today I am home free looking at the positive ,and trying to hold back the tears that just want to flow.  Maybe they are tears of joy for the realization of the wonderful blessings that have been bestowed upon my life?  That is how I am trying to look at them but there is a sense of sadness that I can not escape.  Trying desperately to find the source so that I can smother it out, but in all reality I am suppose to feel this  live in it because that is truly the way to smother it out. 
I have felt a source of discontent for quite sometime.  A discontent that I do not remember from my youth.  If have a dysfunctional family history but I always remember being happy.  Did I use that happiness all up?

I think  now that the sun is shining I will put my hands in the earth and plant my lettuce and spinach. Soak up some positive meditation in the garden.

Happy Mothers Day to ALL!!!!

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