Awake

Can't sleep, have been up since 3. I really don't mind the quiet but I have many responsibilities today. AHHH to be able to live life on my true schedule, Just a dream and a faint memory of the days when that almost possible. I guess there have always been obligations except when we are newborns. Oh the quiet has ended the birds are awake, chirrrping joyously. I had a first experience, I was on facebook and not one of my friends were , or at least they didn't let others know they were on. I had so much to say about an hour ago, I guess my brain is short circuiting due to its exhaustion. That is the problem with not being able to sleep. I still have to tend to my life and can't just make up the sleep when my body really wants to do it so the brain starts to shut down. Ok I think I am going to do something mindless like shop on line. Sweet dreams everyone!

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