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Can't sleep, have been up since 3. I really don't mind the quiet but I have many responsibilities today. AHHH to be able to live life on my true schedule, Just a dream and a faint memory of the days when that almost possible. I guess there have always been obligations except when we are newborns. Oh the quiet has ended the birds are awake, chirrrping joyously. I had a first experience, I was on facebook and not one of my friends were , or at least they didn't let others know they were on. I had so much to say about an hour ago, I guess my brain is short circuiting due to its exhaustion. That is the problem with not being able to sleep. I still have to tend to my life and can't just make up the sleep when my body really wants to do it so the brain starts to shut down. Ok I think I am going to do something mindless like shop on line. Sweet dreams everyone!

So I always wanted to be one of those people who kept a journal. So that one day my children would enjoy reading their mothers thoughts(do I really want my children to know my dark thoughts?They are a little more dark than I would like. Maybe when I am dead), but i can't seem to keep up with it. I always have the inclination to write and the thought flow but the whole paper to pen thing I can't keep up with. Writing is such a lost art. I love receiving letters from people, don't you? It makes my day when I go to the mailbox and their is a letter from someone. Something other than a bill or a piece of junk mail. SO I try to randomly write friends letters, hope they enjoy them. O.k. back to journaling. Gary and I started a combined journal when we moved in together, I think he has hidden it from the view of young eyes I hope he did not discard it. It was nice to be able to share with one another in the written form , it at times helped us organize our thoughts befor...