Wonder why....

Wonder why I have these feelings. Feelings as though I am not doing enough with my life. My life is full plenty, yet I am always questioning is it enough. Is because the full plenty is mundane? A little boring with too much structure? Is it that I do have some thing big to accomplish? I have accomplished big things one would say. Two degrees,Husband & three kids, a house, cars, numerous jobs with under privileged children and with privileged children, so what am i looking for?
I seem to have lost my sense of humor along this life fulfillment that is probably what makes me the most sad. When you oldest child does not know what your laugh sounds like, it slaps you in the face and says look at you, what happened??!?!?!?
Some would recall the laugh I had it was a distinguishing feature that most commented on and often for I was laughing all the time, did I use up all of laughter? As a Child I thought that I had a cap on my head to refill with laughs , tears etc... and I would just open it and refill maybe I will try that today:) So as I refill my giggles and I will keep wondering what it is I am to accomplish and work towards it as I do the everyday. Smile its contagious:):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

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